Entry Two

I'm nearly falling apart, again. Here I am - feeling lost. I do not know what to do. I can't keep my mind straight and I'm losing focus. I'm afraid that if I did something, it might turn out as a failure which will eventually add up as a burden. I do feel tired, worn-out. I can't put myself together anymore. It's as if every moment there is a piece of me that's slowly slipping away. And whenever I had found the courage to look for it and bring it back to it's place, another piece of me will loosen. It's a cycle. I'm almost getting used to it but I don't wanna let myself. I am scared that  anytime I may go numb. I do not like this feeling. I wanna be back! I have lots of plans in my life and I can't afford to watch them turn into nothing. I'm struggling, fighting my way up - to get away from this depressing place. I don't wanna be worthless. I don't wanna feel worthless. I'm hoping I could find the light as soon as possible. And when I saw the light, I pray that have the enough courage and inspiration to move forward and carry on.